You never know what you might have been saved from at times until life fully unravels.
I have been in an unraveling, unpredictable season.
My grandma and I were walking a month ago where we were hit by a car; this is where the unraveling began. My grandma and I suffered weeks of sore backs, tore muscles, and tired spirits, and I know she is still experiencing greater pain that I am feeling since the accident.
After this experience, a dear loved one, who will remain nameless, went through one of the toughest seasons one can experience; the unraveling continued.
Life is this beautiful, eloquent, vibrant quilt stitched with adventurous color, but my quilt got caught, thread unraveling, beauty undoing, color fading, and adventure fearing.
I have been trying to put my quilt back together, each thread at a time, trying to stitch and weave healing back into what was, but I am learning that this quilt has met its end, and that’s okay.
I felt that I was gathering the fragments of the year of what was. Everything in me wanted to sleep, ignore, numb out, and forget. I didn’t want to engage, acknowledge, feel or remember all that this season was bringing.
Everything in me wanted to just survive, flight or fight.
Flight in the sense to run away and not feel.
Fight in the sense to protect my ragged quilt.
When we experience the unraveling of life, we don’t have to choose between flight or fight.
We can choose to create something completely new.
I didn’t run away nor did I try to protect the little I had left.
I chose to learn, grow, and bloom where I was planted.
Since the car accident and seeing my loved one walk through the shadows of life, I have been choosing hope. I have been choosing to take each unraveled thread and weave something new.
As I have been weaving back intention, purpose, and hope into my life, I begin to realize that the quilt that I am creating is even more beautiful, more vibrant, more experienced, more durable, more resilient than the last.
Whatever you are going through this season, you don’t have to choose fight or flight.
You can choose life by choosing to create, plant, sow, and invest because those simple acts of faith echo hope and belief that there is a future worth living, creating, planting, sowing, and having.