God,
Thank You for keeping me sane, safe, and healthy during this crazy, unpredictable, and uncertain time in history. We have been having the most wonderful hang outs and conversations in my backyard in the warmth of the sun on my blanket. Butterflies fluttering, birds chirping, clouds forming and moving, and sun beaming reminding me that no matter how chaotic this world may get, You keep the world together.
I have been learning that You are not far; You are a whisper away, a gentle pivot of the soul, a silent reposition of the heart, or slight human wonderment to Your mystery. You are closer than my own skin, and I am sorry that it took me a quarantine to learn this.
You are the breath my soul has needed and missed in all of my exhausting and busy seasons of my past. Lord, my soul was never called to breathe through a straw, in mere survival yet I deprived it; You have always called me to breathe strawless, free and abundant like the wind who has its way.
I feel like I am seeing vibrancy of colors and experiencing frequencies of energy at a whole new level. You have given me new eyes to see, a new heart to love, new spirit to thrive, and a new body to live in this life, and it all came by answering the beckon of this pause, holy and sacred.
You have been desiring to give this to me all along. It just took a quarantine to pause my frantic and exhausting performance. I just needed to slow down my heart, still my spirit, and tune into Your voice that was always asking me to a slow dance, just You and me, quiet, close, and safe.
You have called and beckoned me away from the tiring show, people pleasing, solo-dancing, masquerading, exhaustive parading being left with utter frailty, dried to the bone, stripped of hope. You never called me to that dance.
I hear Your words: Be still, take a breath, and slow dance with Me.
Lord, I choose to take Your hand, draw near, feel Your heart, and slow dance.
Love Your Daughter,
Lauren Cancio