I like to define my years because it makes me see it for what it really was and the transformation it brought.
2019 was a year of healing for me in so many ways, and I am glad I was able to find a name for this year that brought so many tears, stretching scars, stress, and yet so much growth and a rebirth in so many ways.
2019 was a culmination of many things such as the year where I transitioned from being a teacher to a vice principal.
2019 was the year the Covering Church transitioned from being a church to a people who were appointed to being sent out to cover others wherever we go.
2019 was the year I had to say goodbye to Papa, my grandfather, who spoke so much life into my way of being as a writer.
2019 was the year of my 10 year anniversary from graduating high school.
2019 was a year of stretching, moving, sacrificing, and breaking for many of my loved ones, family, and friends.
2019 was a year of us choosing to be a miracle for others by choosing to give no matter how much healing we were undergoing as a couple, choosing abundance over lack, giving of our time, resources, love, and money - anything that we had.
2019 culminated a year of my husband and I keeping our commitment of staying physically active in working out and exercise.
2019 marked the year that we said yes to digging deeper roots in the home we currently live in and choosing to say yes to staying another year and not moving.
2019 marked a year being committed to our new church family at Humanity.
2019 helped me get clear of our next steps as a family.
2019 was a year of healing.
2020, I am claiming to be a year of rebuilding.
As we all know, the healing process especially when it is fresh does not feel good; it is extremely uncomfortable, but if you are consistent with cleaning and tending to it and not ignoring it, it will soon heal fully.
I am so glad that Michael and I chose to experience and push through the suffering that the healing process brought at times.
There were plenty of moments that we missed what “was”. We missed the good “old days”. We missed what was comfortable and expected but not much grows in comfort.
Just like a body rebuilds muscle after being tore down from weights and cardio, same goes for our soul.
We can’t avoid the hard things like suffering or the uncomfortable if we truly want to grow.
As we celebrate the last Monday of the decade of 2019, I am happy to share that I came to the realization that anything that is healthy will grow; it is up to us to make those healthy choices.
I encourage you to define what 2019 was for you and claim and declare what you want your 2020 to be.
I might have had to start from scratch at the beginning of 2019 in many areas from rebuilding a new church community where I am truly seen, starting from scratch in a position that is completely new to me, strengthening my body every day from one muscle to another, choosing love in a way that empowers people and not enables people.
Thank you, 2019, for all that you have taught me. I am stronger and more resilient than I even imagined.
When I choose to push through the suffering, I can get to the hope that is promised.
I am excited to rebuild in 2020 with a secure and ready foundation that has been healed from life’s tough seasons of 2019.